Surprise! You Suck at Life!

There should have been a sign on my bathroom mirror with these words in bright pink this morning. While waking up on time, I found that for the second morning in a row my right eye was slightly puffy and had excess 'sleep' around my eyelashes. Upon removing said 'sleep' I discovered it was slightly pink inside... If only this was the type of pink eye I was referring to. This I could handle. Except my eyes are blue. And I don't so much wear pink eye shadow very often. But that's not the point. Can anyone even remember the last time they had pink eye? Because I can't. I don't think it's full blown yet because it has yet to itch uncontrollably and water all of the time. I am, however, washing my hands eighteen times a day and steering clear of my coughing children who seem to swarm around me while jumping off the walls today with their snotty noses and unwashed hands. Gross.

Yes, this was the beginning of my morning. Followed by jumping into my car to realize I had plenty of time to get to work on time or maybe even a couple of minutes early. Until I looked down at my gas light. So, I stopped for gas, freezing. Roll into work about 5 minutes late to discover I'm being evaluated today by our Curriculum Coordinator. Fantastic.

Breathe in, Brush it off, Breathe out. You're fine.

My kids then proceed to be entirely out of control all morning. Fighting one another and running through the room, whinning and yelling. Do they know not to do this? Yes. Did they act this way yesterday when I wasn't being evaluated? Of course not. While I managed to be enthusiastic about my lesson even though I still felt terrible, I was pretty confident. It was too cold to go outside, however, and the longer the morning went on the more I wanted to knock their little heads together! Note: I would never. Just so you know. But I have thought about it. You would too.

When the CC left, my co-teacher just looked at me and laughed. She knew I was at a breaking point. Our last two evaluations have come back with perfect scores. They were both informal for me however because I had not been the lead teacher that day. Today, of course it was formal. And of course I was the lead teacher. It was my turn. And I sucked. You might think I'm being hard on myself. And I might be. I haven't gotten my scores back yet. But at this point, I want to press the rewind button and find myself back in bed cuddled up in my sweats. Or perhaps, fast forward until Friday. Eye drops in hand and work behind me for another weekend of bliss.

God help me. What a morning.