Both songs off of Carrie Underwood albums... but that is neither here nor there. We're not talking about Carrie today, maybe another time...Today I've been feeling a little sorry for myself. Some of my best friends, including Rico, are moving back/ have moved back to the college life today. I've told you before that I'm already jealous. While the parties I'm sure will go on for the next week and the pictures will immediately be posted on select social networking sites, I will be early to bed and early to rise working like an adult. My question is, when did I agree to be an adult already?
You go through the motions for years... K-12, 4 years (hopefully) of college, then bam!.. Just like that, get a job, get insurance, get a life... on your own. Wait, what? Do I have to? Well, the answer to that is "Yes, you do."
In any case, today I've been thinking about the "I told you so's..." My favorite Island girl and I often discussed how hard it was back when she was the most recent graduate among us. She moved to another city, taking on a new adventure, all by herself. Building a life on her own without the comfort of our small school and close network of friends. Many times we discussed her feelings on the matter and I felt bad. I wanted her to be back with me in school just as bad as she wanted to be, but it just wasn't going to happen. Time marches on. I said then that I understood, but I know now, that I didn't have a clue. Because now here I am. The most recent of the graduates I suppose. Living and learning. And wishing I'd prepared myself more when she "told me so."
The first round of stories and pictures will be hard. Maintaining distance from sorority drama will be easier. Trying to hold it together like an "adult" while Rico finds new friends (skanks) to go to and adore will be hardest.
Is this what it's supposed to be like? Growing up and getting on with everything else life has to give... Another chapter to life's story. I know it's not supposed to be easy. But this is a new level of difficulty I'm dealing with today. It feels real and I don't so much appreciate reality at this point.
I sent Hallmark cards today. They make everyone feel better right? No? Oh well. I sent them anyway. My favorite of the day went something like this:
"Is everyone giving you that 'it gets better with time' BS?... It should be shopping. It all gets better with shopping."
That pretty much sums it up. Maybe I should suck it up and just go shopping.
1 comment:
I swear it gets easier! You're right, the pictures are the hardest part, but over time you realize you get the good parts, without all the drama. The relationships grow and mature, and everything just 'feels' better...it will makes sense in a few months, promise! Until that only 5 more days till I see you!!!!
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